The Puzzle of my life </3
Ionley.
This is ridiculous. After 18 or so years of being content an not really care so much about having a boy friend, or even being like a third wheel around my friends that did have a boyfriend or emit even a boyfriend just like a significant other. I’m the 4 oldest of my cousins on my moms side, out of 7, so right smack in the middle. Very last to even have a significant other to speak of. Always just flat out didn’t really want a significant relationship with a guy. And now. Well I actually have a relationship with a guy, which is more like I Love the guy. But of course I had to getup and go back to washington for some stupid idiotic reason. So therefore 3000 miles away from him. And… Tonight I get a text message he sent me with a frowny face saying he’s lonely. I’m thinking, :( and that I feel the exact same way. I miss him. His smile. Just staring at each other. Snuggling. Cuddling. Just all around being with one another. I want that again. And I dont want it to go away. I want it now. I don’t want it to been one of those cases where you spend time together a little bit and your loving that person and then you don’t see them for awhile, and when you finally see one another again, that feeling is gone. Ugh. Lost and hurting.
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